Life Lessons

Sometimes I honestly wonder why people do the things that they do. The last two years of my life I can honestly say are the two years that I have learnt the most about life. Although I am technically young in the eyes of the people around me, I have learnt that age is only a number. A number that cannot determine the maturity of any one individual. I am only 19 turning 20, but the experiences that I have had in my life have lead me to a full time 9-5 job and I am renting a house with my boyfriend of two years. A lot of things have lead me to this point in my life, not all rosy but each and every moment I cannot regret because I would not be the person I am, in the position I am, Living this amazing life, meeting some of the most amazing people. I will however recommend that anyone looking to move in with a friend should really think twice.... I can’t say that I did, because I moved in with a friend after only really knowing them for one year and that is not enough time. You really do get to know a person inside out once you live with them. Unfortunately due to arguments about money we are currently not speaking, but you can’t please everyone. This whole arrangement of living with my friend affected my life in more ways than I am pleased about, but it has lead me to appreciate the little things... and I have also realised that due to me being so unhappy in that environment, I let it affect who I was as a person and the way I was living my life. Now that I am out of that situation completely, there are parts of my life that I really want to get back and build on. One of the main things is doing things for me and just me. I neglected the things I used to do that truly made me happy and I started to lose myself in this whirlwind of negativity. It took a hold on me because I neglected the things that I was most passionate about and I wasn’t making time for me to just have fun and live my life. I used to just work, come home, watch TV, eat and sleep for probably a full year before I realised if I don’t start making changes this is going to be my life. But here we are I’m completely independent, I know who my true friends are and although bad things happen, I know I’m strong enough to be ok in the end, because I have some of the most amazing people right behind me supporting me and every decision I make. The most important thing in life is your family, the people you love and the people who bring out the best side of yourself. I just can’t express how grateful I am for those people because without them I honestly think I would be leading a very different lifestyle. I’m so much more confident in myself, who I am and who I want to be, that I can’t say I regret any of my decisions even the bad ones, because I would probably be the same timid, pushover that I was in high school thinking that pleasing everyone was the most important thing. It really isn’t, being happy and living your life the way you want to is definitely the way to approach things, because you only get one shot at life and I want more than just the ordinary life that everyone strives for, I want to look back one day when I’m old and just smile because of the amazing memories I made through taking opportunities to have amazing experiences.

Moving Again?!

Yes I am terrible at blogging, yes it has been way too long(AGAIN). Yes I always say I'm going to get better but there we go life just throws you curve balls and you just have to go with it. so for a quick summary/catch up, I've changed my hair colour to brown, platinum and then brown and now a lighter brown... I've been in a relationship for a year and a half... I own a cat, who is the cutest little thing... I no longer have a car... I have a new job (not that new I've had the job since may.. so like 5 months)... its mid/ end of October and I have not touched Christmas shopping... I'm also saving to move out AGAIN!! This time with my Boyfriend/Partner and the cat :) I've said before that a year can bring so much change and it definitely does every year... I'm just looking forward to starting a new chapter in my life and getting back on track with where I want to be... To be more focused on being a happy positive person :).

Catch up...

So its been that long since I've posted here that its a different year... Although in my defence I have been very busy. Now that I've moved out of my parents home and im trying to make my way in this world independently its made me look back and really appreciate my parents and how much they have done for me over the years... However the biggest shock for me was money. This world revolves purely around money... with rent/gas/electric/water/council tax, buying food running a car it all adds up and considering my wage is only 5.14 I'm barely doing it.. each month is a struggle for money and I've reached a whole new level of stressed that I didnt know existed. But. I wouldn't change it for the world. Moving out has made me grow up take on bigger responsibilities and has taught me to really appreciate my parents and what I do have. Aside from paying all these bills working between 30-50 hours a week I havent really had time to do all of the things I used to like going to town, taking spontaneous trips camping or going on road trips. These are the tings that I miss... But I now appreciate my free time so much more. I'm setting myself a new years resolution (bit late) but I'm going to try to take time out for myself to don the things that I used to love like writing, drawing, photography making videos... only in the last few months since I've started working full time have I realised how quickly time is passing by without me really doing anything or achieving anything and I plan to take each moment as it comes and do the best I can with it.